Well.... the text below is my testimony speech, its been given a number of times in different forms. Including to a Student Life (christian group) meeting with 150-odd in the crowd, as well as being heard in the Macquarie University cafeteria at lunchtime - we were in the open roofed area underneath.
Eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow we die, that was how I used to live my life. Just doing anything that seemed like fun, like at my Year 12 Formal after party where drinking vodka seemed like fun. Of course drinking by cup-full after cup-full doesnt seem as fun when youre lying in a field, throwing up on someones shoes.
And that was the problem, the merry part was missing, no matter how my I drank, or inhaled or whatever, I was almost constantly depressed and lonely, just moping through life waiting for the next high. This didnt just include chemical things though, but doing things that made other people feel unhappy at least brought them down to experience my pain, and that at made me feel a little okay.
Then one day Tina, a friend from school, invited me along to a meeting of the Christian group she attended. I had nothing better to do, and thought it would at least be good for a laugh, so I went along a couple of times. This got me thinking, maybe there was a god, and if there was I was defiantly not good enough to get into heaven.
Over the next few months I checked out Christianity and a few other religions. Then one night Tina organised a dinner meeting where a minister from her church presented the basics of the Christian faith. I found out that in fact no one lived up to Gods standards, and we were all destined to die once and then to face judgement (Hebrews 9:27). But I also found out that Jesus Christ, the Son of God, had died and been raised from the dead so that I could be forgiven and bought back to God.
After a few months of mental struggles and checking and re-checking what it said in the Bible, on the 18th of October it all fell in to place. I realised that God loved me and had a purpose for my life. I decided to put my trust in Jesus, so I pulled out a pamphlet that Id picked up at the dinner, fell down on my knees and with tears in my eyes told God in prayer that I believed hed forgiven me through Jesus death.
From that point on I knew that I was in a personal relationship with God, the creator of the universe and Ive realised what that meant. Its been so different since then, actually being happy, really truly happy, and knowing that there is a purpose to my life. Doing things like playing in the band at Church is really great. Being able to talk to people without worrying what they think of me, and just generally being able to love and be loved is just so monumentally different to how things used to be. Now it hasnt been perfect, and I havent been perfect, not by a long shot. I still struggle with all kinds of things, but knowing that God loved me enough to send his Son to die for me is so awesome, and knowing that Im assured of going to heaven because of what God is done, not what Ive done is such a comfort. Yay God!